How on earth is this fairytale story possible?

I deconstructed the Internet economy in the same way I had deconstructed chess. The result was even better – the wider the field, the more shortcuts to success. I could even afford to make many mistakes. Because remember, I had only one rare skill – to see reality and the structure behind it. I still had the urges to do the same stupid shit everyone does and I made plenty of wrong turns. There were setbacks, however the underlying industry and chosen business model were so much in my favor that my business was always growing.

It took me only 2 years to realize the Internet was full of low hanging fruits and you could make money almost out of thin air. You can still do it. It was even easier to become a millionaire than a decent chess player. Most entrepreneurs had the very same weakness as most chess players. They couldn’t evaluate how hard (or easy) shit is, they seeked beauty above truth. They rooted for the underdog and therefore wanted to succeed as the underdog. They didn’t want it easy, they wanted it hard.

After I learned my lesson in chess, I was fine with easy wins. Fine with low competition and high margins. Fine with the boring high odds of success. I felt like I hacked life. Just like in chess, it was only possible because I hacked my mindset at the same time. How did I rewire my whole brain this time? By mere chance.

See, for very long periods in my life, I was falling in love with exceptional, infinitely kind women, yet I was rejected and friend-zoned by every single one of them. Unlike most people, I learned to live with rejection and stayed in those amazing friendships which made me a better person. This pattern continued for a long time but contrary to expectations, it’s the best thing that ever happened to me. It’s what made me grow and defined me as a person. It gave me the biggest realization about life.

There is no symmetry, ever. Don’t search for it, don’t expect it, don’t even assume it. Everything is a mess and you just have to dive in every time and give with no expectation of getting anything back. You’d be amazed by the miracles that happen when you have no expectations.

I spent the best part of the last 20 years in a state of constant growth (both visible and within) combined with all this rejection that just kept my motivation strong. There was no logic to anything and few comfort zone times. It was all one beautiful flow.

I adapted in strange ways, focused on giving away more and more to the special people in my life. I embraced vulnerability and pointed my energy flow outwards – it turned out that caring for others was the best way to take care of myself. There are many wonderful people who live their lives in this way but they rarely get ambitious enough to scale their freedom and achieve more because they believe that this will mess up their higher moral principles.

However, I was running a business in a very dynamic industry. I had no choice but to scale. On this path my unconditional love clashed with the reality of life many times. Love always won when I followed one simple rule – not holding it back. So writing this I’m not holding anything back. This is the real me.

Few people go through a mixed bag journey like mine. It’s rare to be competent and financially successful yet, thanks to the bountiful industry, not change under the pressure of the responsibilities involved. I was lucky life showed me how sometimes our romantic dreams don’t materialize but we can still be happy and point our love to the world instead. Unreturned feelings are not in vain, trust me, as long as the person on the other side is kind and understanding. Life is not symmetrical. The one with love in their heart is always the one with the better deal. Love, unlike attraction, is something in your heart, unlike the biochemical processes that bring people together.

For a long time it was my growing realization that with my increasing internal power to diminish my ego came with great responsibility. I wanted to be who the world needed me to be, however I knew little about the world. I learned as much as I could about science, psychology, economy and politics. Everything that makes the world tick. I continue to do this every day.

Finally in 2021 I had a crisis of motivation and something had to happen. This powerful flow had to materialize. Impact Mindset and its first project I Grow Younger were born as a vehicle of my true, selfless love to the world itself, removing the last mental barrier between me and… everything else. My Love Letter to the world that had given me so much.

My unique experience was now out there for everyone to explore and learn from. My money and resources would be transformed into all the positive world change I could turn them into. Most of all I realized how much I love this planet and was going to personally fight for its health, its freedom and every single one of its people.

It’s hard to claim you’re special without raising eyebrows. Being serially romantically rejected is not trendy but, honestly, this is what made me who I am. My responsibility is to offer the world what it needs if I can provide it.